Mr... Just me.

And on another note... If you found out what you tell people influenced them in negative ways... When you only vent to people to let them know what your going through... Never putting that weight on them or telling them it has anything to do with them.. It's a fucked up thing... But I guess that's why I've always been Mr. Misunderstood.. Juust my Depression, suicidal, passionate, and thoughtful ways that makes me...me. but what do you do? You disappear.... because if they can't see you what can they say? What can they say if your voice is only that that you can hear from a box? It's in the mail... Watch me.. No need to check on me.. I'm not for sell.

Mrs.

This may just be my last blogpost... And the problem is I'm too self centered... so for the final act I may just need to let the whole world revolve around the. We'll see.... Don't miss me...

My probably silence

It's all good though 😷🌇🎈🎉

Friends---Girlfriend

There's a difference between girlfriend and friend, but what I'm realizing is that if your friends first ...that's better sometimes...

The door

If people say or imply they no longer want to be a part of your life... What do you do? You didn't push them out so they wanted to leave...

Posted (Im spoken)

My damn words, don't take it like you get it or know what I'm talking about! These are my words, so I vent....so I say what's on my mind, etc... If something is ever posted anywhere from me ...DON'T TELL ME YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT...or....THINK YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT OR WHO FOR THAT MATTER.... You act like I'm just doing things and in a way I am... But damn it I got a reason and you need to hear it.... My mistake for expecting you to ask... You can't trully care of your not willing to hurt, and that cuts deep.. You can't think your with someone or your going to be if you never establish that dialogue... And to be real that dialogue is what relationships count on... Stop being so "ima hold myself while I keep myself happy in everyway" that's impossible... Because if you tell me your happy that way I'll tell you your not and why your not... Confusion stems from a lack of spoken words in a decision... Lost means you gotta open up to find what your looking for... You won't always find it in yourself... Because you are the lost one...

Recent abilities

Too much to write about... Too much to talk about... But I'm just getting done with talking about shit that happened months ago... Or am I done. I blog a lot less now and lately simply because doing this vents out emotion or well basically this is a form of expression like music to me so maintaining both has me pulling on a rope... There's something I've wanted to do a lot more lately... I mean I've been depressed but I've never wanted to take it that far... I'm not depressed anymore but I feel like an action would be the ultimate form of relaxation. I'll be back at some point here writing about what's been going on on my side with your problems... Or should I talk about that? Lol I'm in the closest sense of being in a relationship that makes my friends awkward, and I can't care about it because I have to do things for me sometimes. I deserve it! Right? Thank you. Quiet as kept there's so much I can speak on with you yet I've kept it quiet for a reason... My girlfriend set it up like we're friends first, or maybe I did that myself..who knows? I just live it right? I mean she's what I wanted so I'm happy right? I can't seem to focus on things though... Relationships to friendships to all and all, I wish the connection would be as deep as I want it and to have a connection where I no long have to worry about what I tell someone because they realize it's me and accept me for it. But there's always a silent judge, how my actions fuck me.. Haha I'm incomplete and lately I feel as though I never will be complete... Isn't it wrong to tell someone how to love you? Isn't it wrong to tell a friend how to be a friend?... To tell family how to be family? Wish on my stars.... My eyes, your heart... Guide me :) 🎆🎆