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Too much to write about... Too much to talk about... But I'm just getting done with talking about shit that happened months ago... Or am I done. I blog a lot less now and lately simply because doing this vents out emotion or well basically this is a form of expression like music to me so maintaining both has me pulling on a rope... There's something I've wanted to do a lot more lately... I mean I've been depressed but I've never wanted to take it that far... I'm not depressed anymore but I feel like an action would be the ultimate form of relaxation. I'll be back at some point here writing about what's been going on on my side with your problems... Or should I talk about that? Lol I'm in the closest sense of being in a relationship that makes my friends awkward, and I can't care about it because I have to do things for me sometimes. I deserve it! Right? Thank you. Quiet as kept there's so much I can speak on with you yet I've kept it quiet for a reason... My girlfriend set it up like we're friends first, or maybe I did that myself..who knows? I just live it right? I mean she's what I wanted so I'm happy right? I can't seem to focus on things though... Relationships to friendships to all and all, I wish the connection would be as deep as I want it and to have a connection where I no long have to worry about what I tell someone because they realize it's me and accept me for it. But there's always a silent judge, how my actions fuck me.. Haha I'm incomplete and lately I feel as though I never will be complete... Isn't it wrong to tell someone how to love you? Isn't it wrong to tell a friend how to be a friend?... To tell family how to be family? Wish on my stars.... My eyes, your heart... Guide me :) 🎆🎆