Suicidy

I am suicidal... Like really... I have thoughts and I have tried... So I may kill myself... Thats what you don't know... That's something I don't mention to anyone.. Well except one other person. And maybe some addiction to some things... But thats another day.. I started Hiphop music because honestly life was too much for me to keep to myself and not telling anyone... I do music to keep my mind off of things and I'm not suicidy... I don't... Haven't told you this because I don't want it to be viewed as like "oh I'm going to kill Myself because of you" or anything like that. I'm not trying to be a Charles... So I kept it to myself... (But isn't that what you want me to do?)