Why the less frequent post..?

Why I'm not speaking as much anymore as well as on here is not because I want to be silent or anything like that. It's because when I express myself and my feelings about people and things I come off the wrong way with people. Speaking from my heart gets me in trouble...(but am I that troubled) People I very much care about have told me I'm like a wounded animal or some shizz like that (and in mind an apology was never given) so individuals meant it when they said it. Therefore silence is a response. Is the quiet better? I can't talk to some people and be even a friend if I can't honestly do and say what I feel. I try to be as open as possible with things and as a response I get a punch to the face (verbally) so what to do about that? I didn't get angry and rampage, though I want to. (thinking a response to the previously stated, is expected) calling me that burned me...burned me bad.. And it still burns, still hurts, still responds. But you wouldn't know that...