Stop trying to be "good enough" with me please. You already are <3 perfections and imperfections... Your personality alone is what makes you you, and is what makes me love you...anger...and all... :) do you understand I love you...FOR YOU? What fun is our future engagements if you have to try, I want you to be natural you. No glitz no nothing. Just you and who you are at heart... Don't play an emotion... I want your heart and all that comes from it.
If I make you feel like I don't want you around, I'm sincerely sorry. You just need to know what's going on in my head..lol is it just recently or has it been for awhile? Recently it's because I don't want "others" to think I'm flirting with you and stuff like that. It's easy to do that with you, I don't really notice it most the time and I'm REALLY attracted to you so it's like (lalalalalalala I don't have any feelings for you at all(repeating) in My head) Then I see you smile and I have to start screaming it to myself.
I want to have sex with you.lol yeah I said it, even though I know that's not stuff you like to talk about. There's alot more to that...but I'll leave it there for now because we've never been to that topic.
If its awhile it's because of everything going on with you. Your boyfriends, especially Mr. Eggbeater... Among other things...
I get jealous sometimes though I don't want to show it.... (why I decided to leave mr. Far away alone, so i don't show it)
I care about you more then I tell you and more then I think I do myself...
...... I want you around the rest of my life. (get me? ... And I mean that by all means possible)
It does bother me.. some things I've heard about you... (you and eggbeater sexuality) but I also try not to show it but end up showing it by joining into everyone elses fun of teasing you about it.. (Which is why I say I'm sorry because I really am it just happens). And so you know giving a guy a hand-job still means your a virgin.lol unless there's other things... which I want to know...
Sometimes it seems like you don't want me to know your talking to him and your around him... Which really bothers me (I fuck up my knuckles with "her" because she acts like she doesn't want me to know things) I hate when people aren't completely honest with me and try to be sneaky and stuff like that... It gets me bad.... Yes I mean bad... Because I feel really bad about myself about it to... If you want to be with a guy then be with him even after you tell me your done with him and all this other crap because being sneaky and all that other stuff is only going to piss me off... So you know.... It only puts US farther back if your being that way or going back on something you tell me so don't say it if your not going to do it.
Being there for me..........
That goes a long way in all directions, I want you to but it's like there's somethings I don't think you want to talk about or are comfortable talking about and i feel like you've been here for me recently alot more then usual and I like it. Almost Anytime ive been dealing with anything you've been
right by my side(kinda).lol
On another note... I don't know how this compares to my longest, and I really can't believe I just said all this...really leaning to take something out... Don't think I should be that honest.lol
I am being honest with you, I don't want anything to do with him. When I'm at my locker he's always there. & I don't want to be a bitch and just tell him off. Bt whatever. And I never said I wasn't a virgin. I'm happy to be one, & what have to heard about my sexuality? And who teases me about what? And I didn't know you have those feeing about me lol 4 th praragraph. & with the feeling of you not wanting to be around me.. It's weird I feel like I can't be around you when she's arOund because she doesn't like me or gets jealous of the fact that we talk. But I'm not going to stop either.
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