My music

So the thing is I'd let the people I write music (to) listen to the music if I wasn't worried about ridicule and the value of the songs meaning less to me after they hit some virgin ears... I want the ridicule as worse as it comes and I want honest opinion from the person it was written about... But at the same time I don't feel they will understand what it means to me/what it's meant to me, nor the process and overall what I went through personally before I wrote the song, during when I wrote the song, and how I felt when I wrote the song... Like some of this stuff had me in tears to write... And virgin ears I don't think would get that also I don't would really hear the message I'm trying to put through and get across...