Odd ball

Ahh I feel odd... But is it better then I've felt lately? Hurt, smart, stupid, regretful, neglectful, ignorant (when I wanna be), an asshole, wanting what feels like is in my grasp but may not be there, sad, disappointed, like me in my day is the robot, tired, happy, mood swing with a beat... The list goes on.... Feeling this what am I? Seeing this how am I? How do you all watch? Or is this just some of the battle inside me?